Friday, October 29, 2004
yay! holidays starts but Pw Op is on monday and AO chinese is on friday.. artgh anyway... scored a BBCCE for promos... not to my expectations really... a C for bio is just not me. anywayz, last training on wed, i aced almost half my service game! cool huh! must keep it up! Things are getting so fun!
Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!
Please rate ^^
What kind of dark person are you?
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posted by Koyuki on 10:07 PM
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Saturday, October 16, 2004
First thing's first, i would like to scream at myself: "Oi!!! Stubborn stubborn dun wan to go see doctor!! Now sick until lyke that!! AIYO!!!"
Yep... flu bugs caught me, rather than i caught it... i wonder who ever wants to catch a flu bug... the person must be crazy or desperate to want to catch it. Actually it started on Wed... or should i say, showed signs on... just headaches. Thurs was worse... legs really weak... head felt as if someone took me and shook me hard... i even had to lean on the trolley when i went marketing with mom, my legs were really all so tired... yare...
Fri? I gave up and went to see the doc... turns out i was having fever,... kekeke... wah... and today i can't turn up for training or some minister meeting... actually, even if i turned up for training, i would not be able to run.. no energy to run at all... haizz...
Anyway, yesterday nite, i had a deja vu dream, good and bad:
I was going to this movie in this huge theatre or should i say stadium... the screen was really small. There was a huge crowd and there were three floors of seats! It was decorated in velvet maroon. My mom came along... I sortta seen this thearte before but it was in another dream... in which, half of it remains, the other was ruins. As i was entering, i heard something about a bomb but i wasn't that sure -best no to speculate-. Anyway, *beams, here comes the good part* I had to find a seat.. no two seats. It was free seating... my mom wanted to find one and just settle down.. but i insisted we sat opposite the screen [btw the theatre was round so some idiots who sit very near the screen would not be able to see it.] And lo and behold, i found two seats. But wait, who's that sitting beside?? three guesses who... its fuji syusuke!!! AHHHH!!! I ignored him and called out to the other side where mom was, asking her come over to seat.. not because that guy was there but because the screen view was good. When i turned around, he smiled and waved at me! I was like "... err ok *wave*" Then he started to irritate me... on purpose. He purposely sat on one chair and stretched his legs onto the other... pretending to talk to someone, ignoring my plead for him to get his butt off my chair... stupid idiot's smile was growing wider as i tried to push him off... damn.. then i woke up!! ARGH!!!!! I DIN GET TO SEE THE SHOW!!!!!
posted by Koyuki on 8:45 PM
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
Well this time, at least things improved. 2 good news, 1 bad news.
Good News:
*Flash Flash* My muscle has finally healed!! I can serve again!!! *kisses right arm* Finally!! Finally!! hahaha. Now i can just do more than just hit the ball against the wall!! Must practise my serves.. they must really suck after so long of a break.
Started to dream alot of my friends lately. meet huijie, mel and steph w. in my dreams the other day. can't really remember the details but it was so good to see them. muax.
Bad news:
*Flashes deem down to a spotlight* Why can dad just understand and stop talking and listen??!! Manz... he said that i'm full of confidence but the jobs i complete are lousy... yet, no evidence to substantiate. I'm really begining to think that he's bringing he's work personallity back home. He thinks i never plan, never find out, never know enough, never want to bother. Yeah rite, how does he even know when we only engage in a monologue where he has one sleepy audience. Whenever i start questioning him about his statements, he says i'm just being arrogant [0.0]. When i start reflecting, well, i dun find any arrogance in my questions. I don't really mind him critising me, cos he's been doing that for years, most irritatably... but how could he do that in front of my face, accusing me without any evidence! He says one must be careful, yes i agree. He's paranoid. *slaps head* gosh, careful till the extreme. Cool down dad! Things would surface in time. Patience breeds success, impatience breeds stress! hahaha. Careful is wad we wanna be, but too careful only give you more loopholes. ;P
The tainted glass lucifies them
To them, seeing is believing
Feeling is but a misleading guide.
When did the world lose their hearts to illusions?
Light from my heart struggles to escape
It wearies as it beats against the unseen barrier.
Its strength is faltering...
Find me before it fades
Find me inside...~ koyuki
posted by Koyuki on 10:29 PM
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Mwhahaha!!!! CHEM"S OVER!!! *Laughs estatically* oh wait... there's still Chinese... mou *hangs head*... Anyway, i had this long long long nap. Once again like yesterday afternoon, I dreamt of the clique again. Yet, it seems that i always turn around and found that i've wondered off somewhere away from them or they wandered off without me. hmm... oh well... but i'm so happy to see them. Missed them so much! muax! can't wait to see y'all on monday! muax! till then, stay cool! [<<
wow, has been a long time since i used that catch phrase. Note to myself: should use it more often again.]
You're Fuji!
(Prince of Tennis) Which Seigaku Regular are you?
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posted by Koyuki on 7:16 PM
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Monday, October 04, 2004
wow... its like october already... and i haven't been blogging for a month already... *stares in suprise*.... nothing much going on in my life though, except my upper arm hurts, more exams and being misunderstood by dad... again.
I sortta tore a muscle while practising my service. Still hasn't recovered... sadz. So wad i do? Play tennis on my PS2 console. haha... my play stle is so different in the game compared to real life... haha. Maybe i should trying learning that style too! My racket's sitting on the floor sleeping already.. haha. Poor thing.
Two weeks before my september hols., exam. Two weeks after my september hols, exam. What is this world coming too?!! Doesnt anyone know wad a break is? hmm... or maybe they thought it was the mental break not the relax break... oh well... one word describes it 'ARGHHHHHHHH' my head hurts.... mwaaaa. Tml's chem exam and my chem equilibrium and chem energentics are so weak!!! *Prays* Oh well... nothing could go too well if i do my best rite? the worse senario that can happen, and has always happen, would be i panic and forget everything...
I felt so disappointed yesterday. Its always happening again and again. I would like to believe that in every one of us, there is good, though some ppl are dominated by the bad side. Is that so wrong to believe? I would also like to believe that if one could shut his mind off of everything, he is able to survive unaffected to a certain extent. Is it so wrong to believe? Why does he have to use extreme cases? Why does he have to say I'm arrogant just because my views don't telly with his? To conform is not my style. It is to create and explore new way that interest me. Its no wonder he doesn't agree. He's afraid of changes. More likely, he's afraid that i'll be right and disprove he's theories. I was so angered when he said that i was the kinda leader or person who disregards relationships and goes head-on into the aim. Worst of all, he said i go in alone. All i've go to say is that he's wrong! I don't ever disregard relationships. I feel that its the one thing that still holds even if a job fails. At least i've achieved something that way. He just doesn't know how much i long to see my old friends again, how much i long for someone to see who i really am. Sometimes its not that i want to go in alone, its because no one dares to walk the road that i'm going to take. Look on the bright side, at least i dare to go alone. I think at this moment, even if you look into my eyes, the windows would only reflect something else and not the real me. Sometimes i feel that I just like an actor who has lived through a lie, covering up myself so much that i even forget who the heck i am. I've even decieved myself... I don't know what to say but its just that I can't bring my own trueself out... I'm afraid... I guess tats one of the last things i would do...