haha... i guess, once again, I'm blogging after a long time!
But i've got one very impt thing to say:
In my life, I've always though I was alone. Though I have friends, sometimes I still feel very alone cos'I've thought that I'm a person who is not worthy to be their friend. I believed that once I was gone, they'll be gone... forgetting me. Though the thought of it is scary but I guess, I'm used to the loneliness and I believed no one needed me and I didn't need anyone else. That wasn't true...
There was this mail sent by a friend which says that people who normally wear black cos want to be unnoticed and need help and understanding..., hate to break it to ya,... but i think wadeva it wrote, it's true. I don't wanna admit but sometimes I would cry inside, cry for someone to know what the hell is going inside me. I wanna scream but something inside me just stops it. Ppl think they know me, but what they only see a fraction of it. They don't really know me... I am almost the same as wad i seem... but only with more complex stuff in it. I laugh, smile, grin, crap stuff because i just want to forget my worries, fears, burdens... so they would not be passed to others who dun need to be bothered by them. They dun seem to wanna know anyway... they have their own problems already... thats enough for them.
I'm just like any other person. I have hate, I have tears, I have problems... the stupid thing about me is... I just can't let it out of me... its just tears me from inside outside. However, look on the bright side, i'm able to control them most of the time. Dun worry! I'm still here! haha ;p
Aniwae, now, i know i'm not really alone... On my birthday, i recieved like 10 over messages (?) yeah... all wishing me happy birthday. I was so happy and moved as i have friends indeed. Thanks guys! Love ya all so much!
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